Power to be Myself

You are in a BOX with no window, but the moment I talk to you it feels so light, as if nothing happened, Just before I started Writing, was actually grieving, but you sooth it.

Sometimes I feel what if you are not there, I will be so alone and helpless. 

when you stay with someone 24 hours, you are their take for granted, and you can keep insulting me, earlier it was only you and now and now in-front of others too.

But you are not insulting me actually you are loosing your respect only, cause my respect has become yours the day u marry me. 

Your bitter words are giving me power only and I am becoming more and more powerful everyday.

Power to reach the target, power to success in tough situation, power to be more strong. Power to stay focused. Power to be myself.

m I empty, Hahaha no, getting more Powerful

No way, i am not empty, just by thinking that my head is empty, and if I keep on talking to you the same way even my head also be empty like yours.

I feel may be you are jealous of me, or not ready to accept that I can manage doing your work smoothly. Kadwi baat bolna aur sehne me fark hota he. And yes i am becoming more powerful by taking all those things from you.

I am better than you in anyway. And you have no right talking to me such way, if you wanna leave me can say that directly, else what you doing thats ok, i might be forced to say that, i wanna leave alone, cause i realised that i forgot smiling only.

But I am gettong more and more powerful.

The male ego and tge broaken me

Aaj jo office me hua, bura hua,nahi hona tha, waise to mere aansu sukh chuke he, rona ab utna aata nahi, par aaj Meet ne kuch baki choda nahi.

Are thu he aaise paise pe, nahi chahiye mujhe, aaisa rutba aur position kis kaam ki, jo tumko aandar se khokla kar de. Male ego itni haavi ho jati he k nicha dikhane me koi kasar na reh jaye. Maine ye kya bol diya k kisi aur ka gussa mujhpe nahi utaro, bhai ye to talvaar le k bas tb tak vaar karte rahe jab tak aatma vishwas ne dum tod na diya.

Me aaj puri tut chuki hu.aandar se aaj jine ki jo thodi si kahin iksha thi wo bhi maar chuki he.

Apne aap ko badlo, tum thoda badlo, thoda badlo. Aaj badal badal k mujhe khud ko bhi nahi pata k me kaun hu. 

Ye kaisa pyar he jo har roz nanga karke ek rumal deta he badan dhakne k liye. Jis tarh se tum sikhana tum chahte ho usse me to kya koi bhi nahi sikh raha, ek baar apne andar jhak k dekho k tumko kitna badalna he. Are yaar mat karo mere liye koi kaam nahi chahiye, tab bhi tumse itna pyar karenge k tum khud bhi nahi soch paoge k aaisa kya kiya tha jo itna pyar naseeb hua.

Par itni zillat mat do k jine se bharosa uth jaye. Aaj to sach me marne ka maan hota he, tabiyat to ek bahana he, par ab to lagta he maut se pehle hi maut aa jaye to aacha he. Ab to koi laacha nahi raha, are baache ka hi nahi raha to baki to kya hi hoga.

Bas maan halka kar ri apna. I miss you lot dairy

samay chakra

Shayad samaya hi saath nahi he isiliye to Pyaar saath hokar bhi saath nahi he.

Galti meri he koi drid nischay le hi nahi pati, 0 ya 100 wala ye rule apna hi nahi pati. Kar pati to zindigi ke is raah par boot si na hoti.

Apna wazood aur apne aap ko to kho hi diya maine, saath saath ab to lagta he aatma saaman bhi bech diya maine. Shayad atma samman bacha hi nahi he isiliye to baar baar beizzat hokar bhi, kuch mahsoos nahi hota, kyuki khone ko kuch aur baki kaha raha.

Ab to bas lagta he vyast rakho khudko itna ke samay hi na mile, aache samay ke intazaar me waqt gawane ka.

Aacha waqt nahi raha to bura bhi nahi rahega, bas dat kar ruke raho,  aur samay aane pe apni udaan bhar lo.

Maan karta he wapas se wo beej ban jaane ka jo seecha gaya tha pyar aur mamta se, aur chal kapat kya hota he na jane wo. 

Fal dene wale ped ko kahan mauka mila he wapas se beej bankar naya roop lene ka, dastoor he ye duniya ka. 

Ped baanjh hota to shayad kaat ke mauka milta naya sansaardekhne ka.

Samay ka chakra ghoomta he aur bas ghoomta, aur laut kar aata he.